Hi,
I wrote this one late one night when my thoughts wouldn’t stop looping. Everyone around me seems to have a plan, they talk about careers, dreams, and timelines like everything’s already written. And for a long time, I thought I was supposed to be that way too.
But I’ve never really known who I’m supposed to be. Some days I want peace and stillness. Other days I crave noise and chaos. Sometimes I want to create, sometimes I want to disappear.
For a while, I thought that made me lost. But lately, I’ve realized it just makes me alive. Maybe we’re not meant to fit into one box or one version of ourselves. Maybe we’re meant to keep changing, to grow into new shapes, to stay curious about what else we could be.
That’s what this poem came from, that small moment of acceptance.
Poem:
A Collage of Everything
I want to be a poet,
a filmmaker,
a librarian,
a café owner,
a therapist,
an architect,
and a musician on sidewalks.
I want to sell books in a quiet town,
but I also want to dance on rooftops
in a city that never sleeps.
I want to grow my own vegetables.
I want to wear suits in glass buildings.
I want to heal people.
I want to disappear.
There’s no one version of me
that feels complete.
Maybe I’m not meant to be one thing.
Maybe I’m meant to be unfinished—
a collage of everything
I ever wanted to be.
The more I live, the more I think peace doesn’t come from having it all figured out. It comes from allowing yourself to keep becoming — from knowing that it’s okay to hold more than one dream, more than one version of you.
Talk soon,
TheFallenPoet
Illustrations by Suntur
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